side-walk

Tatapan menghakimi itu mengiringi setiap langkahku, dimalam yang harusnya syahdu.

12 malam tampaknya tidak terlalu larut untuk aktivitas penduduk pinggiran kota yang ingin bermain catur atau sekedar meneguk kopi.

Ku turun dari angkutan yang sudah tak mampu lagi melewati ukuran jalan dimana aku sementara tinggal,
dan sayangnya mereka tidak mengerti adanya profesi baik - baik saja di jam - jam larut ini.

Berhari - hari ku harus lalui, dan mata - mata itu sudah seperti hiasan lampu jalanan, sungguh ku tak peduli, ku terlalu lelah untuk peduli.

Toi et Moi

“ Should I wear this costume? “ asked me staring the yellow and minim costume with confused face.

“ Yes, hurry up! “ said my friend during changed her clothes with the costume

We in charge for dance and games now, and this is my first time to do it, so I don’t know exactly what's  gonna happen.

I am Janni, one of the employee in this resort, and I quite new here, already 3 weeks, but for in charge like this this is brand new. Honestly first time always like hell.

“ Hurry hurry, just folow the dance, and step up on the stage at the bar“ our stage man said with half worried.

“ What?!!! Stage....?!! Oh, okay, okay... “ supprised me

Left, right, up and down then turn around, it happen until almost 6 songs.

All of the girls dancing makes our body so  so sweating, and don’t ask about my make up, already gone anyway.

The dance finished, now it’s time to game, we play Limbo.. We have to find partner which is guest to play two by two.

“ Oh my gosh, what the weirdo will gonna do next “ me during looking for “ fish “ to play silly game with.

I need man!, I need handsome!, I NEED YOUNG HANDSOME MAN!! Keep put my eyes on that target around the bar.

“ Whats! My friends so fast “

“ Okay, anyone, just find somebody, faster “ I said whishpering to myself

There’s one standing alone boy with his coke, he is not handsome, and too young

Hmmmm... but there's no time to bargain, so I walking to him

“ Hi, come on, play together with me :) “ with a very big smile

“ Eh, hmm..  okay, but I have back pain “ he said

“ Oh, so you can’t play? "

“ Yes, I can, but not too low “

“ Okay, lets go “ I said in a bit of hurry

We make a que in the back, and we introduce our self each other

“ My name is Janni, whats your name? “ I started the conversation

“ Philippe, where do you come from Janni? “

“ Here, Indonesia, and how about you? “

“ French “

“ Wow, but you speaking English very well “

“ Thank you “ he said with smile to me

Our turn coming, and we help each other to pass the stick, with still holding hand.

My turn is successfully passed, and this is time to help him

“ Come on, come on you can do it “ said me cheering him

Hap, hap hap.. whoaa he felll down and we failed

“ Oh I’m sorry, I have trouble with my bones “ he said with full of regret

“ Oh my God, it’s okay, why you didn’t tell me, you just said back pain “

“ It’s okay, just my bone is not grow properly “

I really supprised half worried.  “ How old are you? “

“ 19 "

Another supprise by me, this man really young. We continue our conversation and he asked me to go with him to Kuta for shopping, when I asked him what’s his plan tomorrow. But my bad luck, I’m not in my day off tomorrow.

“ Sorry, tomorrow I still work until afternoon “

“ So what time you free? coz I just stay here for 2 nights “

“ Why so fast, I’m off 3 days again. Emh, this is late night, you don’t go to sleep? “

“ I’m not sleepy, my parent already slept “

“  Hmm, I have to back, do you want to go to the club? I will accompany you “

“ Okay “ and he follow me. After arrive at the club, I say goodbye to him

“ Hufh, just little boy “ in my mind.

Next day, when I work it’s so coincidence I meet him again when I passing the fitness center.

“ Hallo, how are you? “

“ Fine, you still working? “

“ Yeah and I have to go now, see you “

“ See you.... “

Wew, I must be so ugly and look tired in front of him. But what can I do yaa.

The day trough as usual, until at night I meet him AGAIN, his face start looks familiar to me

“ Hi, again, “ I said first while seat on the gapleh area.

Yeah, tonight’s event is multicultural games, which come from many countries, include Indonesia. There’s gapleh, balinese art and craft, and many more.

“ You wanna play with me “ asked me

“ Sure, how to play? "

My friend explain how to play, because I also forget how to play ;p

“ Okay, you both play together “ told my friend, because he know that we seem always together

Round per round we win and laugh together, so far he played very well

“ You have to ask me first before you throw the card “ told me, because sometimes he threw without my permission.

“ Ok madame, now we have to let go this card, are you agree madame? “

“ Oui !“

Everytime I try to speak french, he just smile and never reply with french language, he knew, I can’t speak french.

Slow but sure, my body so light on his shoulder. But I can’t look too close with him, because I still working.

He always look at me with different way when he ask me. He always keep his eyes on me by the way.

At the time I felt like I’m with an adult man. He makes me so comfy at the time.

Gosh, I like this young french guy

Time goes by, and now time to clean up all of these things.

I leave him, and he also knows that I’m busy.

Thats the last time I met him. I forgot he will leaving tomorrow morning.

What makes me sad is, I never say goodbye to him and ask for his any contact.

I never meet him anymore, sometime I miss this moment, we like teenager in love.

I will always remember these day when I sleeping  with big smile.

- Bali always has it's own way to make a story and unforgetable moment to those who willing to stay.-

Merci

hands half up

breath in the air, walk on a dream,
cross the sea with no wings, but stunning still

loser lost the passion to lose,
flag doesn't mind, moon can rewind

i'll find you, you'll find me and the dune will be release,
togetherness someday

an angel pretend to be a cat, the dog react
lucky, the stars has no eyes

jealousy meet favour, give me mention
should cry or smile..

new year eve

Sebuah pulau indah dan ceritanya,

banyak pertemuan, banyak perpisahan dan drama diantaranya

termasuk saat pergantian tahun 2011 ke 2012

Tahun baru yang sangat melelahkan, tidak hanya menunggu tepat pukul 12 malam,

tapi juga persiapan untuk penjamuan sesama manusia.

well dressed, dance. fireworks, champagne, party, and alotta hugs,

mixed by one and everybody happy..

*yeah, I've hug you there :)